P: Berawal dari sebuah forum

(23/08/09)


Hmmm..gw lagi ngapain yah waktu itu,,hmmmm... as long as i can remember, klo si F baru pulang kuliah pada saat itu, brarti gw di london lagi kira2 jam 10 ato 11 pagi, and gw lagi jagain keponakan gw yang bandel2.

Entah kenapa gw hanya bertengger aja depan laptop and tiba2 bukalah satu forum, gw liat itu isinya, dalam hati "ini kok orang2 pada gragas yaah??" sampe mata tertuju pada 1 point yang bikin eye catching banget, dengan tittle "ikutaaaaaaaaaaaannn"
Hmmm, dalam hati gw menarik, and disitu dia bilang, 'gw mo cari temen and gak mau ngasal lagi', hal itu lah yang bikin hati gw tergerak untuk nge-add nih anak, siapa tau iseng2 berhadiah [hahahaha..peaceee!]

Ok, setelah add nih anak, gak beberapa lama di approve, tp dia gak kliatan ol, so dengan kepintaran gw, gw tau klo nih anak pasti invis,,yah udah nekat2 aja gw sapa, kalimat pertama gw tulis 'salam kenal'
Ya udah disitu kita ngobrol2 biasa, sampe dia tiba2 mengeluarkan statement 'jangan tanya gw label apa, cos gw dah muak dengan pertanya2an itu' [kurang lebihnya seperti itu],, dalam hati gw 'waaah siapa juga yg mo nanya, and i don't really give a shit bout those things, cos i don't like it either, the label thing!'

Day by day chatting ma nih anak asik juga, sampe akhirnya gw harus pulang dr london, and disitu gw merasa klo gw bakal kehilangan nih anak krn flight yang lumayan memakan waktu banyak, tp gw mencoba untuk stay cool, dan sampe akhirnya dari chatting2an dia gw bisa mengambil kesimpulan klo dia enjoy chatting ma gw, and i do feel the same thing too, so gw bela2in lah pas transit chatting ma dia..gw ngerasa comfort aja sama si F ini and i feel so alive after what i've been through!

Until one day i told her to listen one song called BLISS, that's representing what i feel for her,, and sampe skarang pun lagu ini msh suka bikin gw nyengir2 sendiri klo inget kegilaan yg gw lakuin..
i always told to my self that 'I've never thought I'd feel the way i'm feeling lately' since i met this F, it can't be explain, just 'that's it!'


i'm trying to deny this feeling, i'm trying to escape from this feeling, i'm trying to resist it but i can't.. i just CAN'T, until one day we had our 1'st fighting, about future [missunderstanding], then suddenly she said she won't continue this, and at that moment i was like freeze and i feel like,,huff unexplainable, and one thing that i just realized at that moment was 'i love her', but i can't say it to her, i just said that 'i THINK i love u', that's the best i can give at that moment, then i give all the decision to her, until she said that 'i love u' directly to me! [i was like an idiot person at that moment, can't react and say it back!]
yang jelas, kita tetep lanjut this relationship, tp gak tau sbagai apa?!!!

One day she told me that she likes number 9 and she want to be married at 9/9/09 [this is so hard for me!!] but i want to make her happy and i want to make it officially to ask her to make a real relationship with me!
And she said yes, then i said to my self 'Well Done Girl!'

That's it for today, we will continue this later